empty

i dunnoe wad i did to makes u do tt...

i noe it might be good for mi... but it hurts mi seeing that u noe?

i nvr tot of things to become this way... nvr...

u might misunderstand mi for that... but i think its doesnt matter to u ba...

i dunnoe...

the cut just went deeper.. real deep.. i tot it cant go any further.. but the truth is tt.. i does happeend yesterday....

i tot i'm strong.. but i'm not...

perhaps... its really enuff for mi le... too much for mi to tk le.. one after another one...

i wont let my frens worry so much for mi le... i noe it hurts u all to see mi this way... sorry for all the trouble... n thanks for everything.. i noe i said many times le.. but thanks... =)

"perhaps i cant this habit of typing here.... so i might as well kp this... love u all.. huGZz.. "

bye~.. -=tiNg=-

went sentosa with jas yesterday...

den meet up w jian at bugis for lunch... =)

den we went raffles city walk walk...

yest eat n eat n drink n drink.. ahhaZz..

after tt went pasir ris park for Nicholas de bday celebration...















ski ride at sentosa~~ Omg!! jas ask mi go sit de... argghh.. i got ju gao zhen lohz.. scared scared.. i was holding on to jas hand from the start till the end..
















try my best to smile~~.. very high right~~ ohh manZz... -_-"















haha.. we at raffles city.. ahaZz.. eating fried mars bar and SPICY sotong!!!!!!!!!!! haha.. hao la..















take 1...















take 2... mi n jas wont eat u lohz.. diaoz.. trying very hard to provide u with so much space le.. but u still not in the pic... -_-"

the last pic.. dunnoe why cannot upload lehz.. hMm.. nvm finally get to tk the pic le lahz...

took many pics during nicholas de bday oso..
hope yi min will SEND to us.. haha.. =)

"hmmmmmm... "

bye~.. -=tiNg=-

erm

ok i'm here blogging again!!!

meet jian at 1030am today n pei him go back to food tech company to take more cheese for his FYP... den after tt we head back to school... den go pei him do FYP lohz.. haha.. but in the end i'm too tired le n fall aslp at packaging lab... i dunnoe why i'm so tired oso... hha...

n ard 3+.. he kp insisting wanna go up to kitchen to hav a look... diao lohz.. coz jas leong is conducting a lesson w RGS student.. hha... diao right.. so we went up.. n he refuse to go lohz.. bth.. i hav to force his out of the room... -_-" n kp hanging ard say he from CAT HIGH... hu giv a damn right... hhaZz...

hmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm wad else?... yah peikun, jas, xt n ben they all went sentosa today.. nvr go meet them.. haha.. coz v tired lehz.. =)

hmmm hmmmmm hmmmmmmm...... thanks everyone.. everyone everyone everyone... =)

reason for my nick... on the path to the peak n i need to do this alone.. u asked mi wad happened n wad is tt abt... OMG!! u asked... for wad? tts wad i'm thinking....

nobody can help mi but myself.. i think i need to reach the peak to where i cannot tk it anymore.. tts when i can start everything again.. tts my decision.. n got nth to do w u... perharps yes.. thanks to u tt i need to do this.. kinda cruel to myself.. i noe.. but i hav to do it...

i told myself for not hating you.. coz i'm tired enuff.. hating someone is much more tiring.. n i dun wan it... coz i wan a better life.. =)

n grevin.. thanks for everything.. i have seen the msg tt u sent to jian..( thou i noe i'm not suppose to see).. u dun owe mi anything yet u do all these just to be w mi when i need frenz... i noe u will say tts wad fren r for... i noe u treat mi as real sis... coz i'm sherry mei.. n i will rmb wad u said... i will tk cr of myself coz i got all the frenz w mi... dun worry.. n u shld tk cr too.. coz u r sick le... =)

"tk cr everyone... ^_-v"

bye~.. -=tiNg=-

truth

i have nvr know that someone can be tt bad... mayb bad is not the word... he is not a word can describe... i have nvr known a person can went tt deep to tell a lie.. or lies.. tt blinded mi to see the truth...

i blame myself for believing mi... i blame myself for trusting you so much.. coz i nvr know u r hu u r... u r no longer the person i love... the person i use to noe... perharps i have nvr noe u nvr understand you.. nobody did... nobody... it makes mi feel that u r a very scary person.. someone untouchable n unreachable... but i have nvr regret loving you.. coz i love the person i tot u r.. the one hu is w mi.. thou not truth thou it doesnt last long.. but i nvr regret... however i do blame myself for trusting... will i be closing myself up once again.. refusing to trust anymore.. i guess so.. i'm tired now.. really tired....

n please dun talk about love or to be loved.. u dun hav the right to love someone or to be loved by someone.. u dun deserve any.. dun wish to commit den forget abt ur tot of loving someone or giving love to someone.. coz u cant love someone.. u dunnoe wad is love... neither do u deserve any love from anybody.. nor from mi... mayb i owe u.. but i certainly paid you back.. n paid more than enuff.. which makes mi feel enuff... really enuff of u...

holding on to something tt makes mi so tired... i think i have giv all i can... yet u r out w other ger.. being kp in the dark.. tts really something tt i hav nvr tot of... but its better than too late... i see the truth now.. i will not wish u luck in ur future or w the ger... coz u will not derserve any.. u wan to play.. yah.. play all u can.. coz u will be played instead... think u shld change ur nick to 'play or to be played.. ANS: to be played'... haha nice 1... but think even if u r being played.. u oso happy.. coz u r simply er xin lahz.. omg!!...

why am i typing all these?.. make myself feel better?.... nope ba... every sentence tt i type .... my heart-ache go a inch deeper... perharps cursing u will makes mi feel better... but i still love you.. tts the ugliest truth.. which i dun understand myself.. for all tt u have done.. why am i still here... walking on a path tt leading to noway... but 1 thing for sure... i hav all my frenz walking w mi...

thanks wei... love u lots.. always there for mi... no matter wad... no matter wad i do.. right or wrong... thanks jas and jian.. to pei mi... thanks for listening to mi.. thanks for trying ur best to cheer mi up... thanks for everything.. even thou u r tired.. but u didnt say anything... thanks grevin... i have said many times le i noe.. thanks.. satiysh n peikun.. thanks... n jo.. thanks... i dunnoe wad i wanna say... just feeling great.. coz i still have my frenz w mi....

"i still cant change the habit of typing little msg here.... many noes wad it is... many noes... coz it used to be so impt to mi... used to..... but i will change it... i will be alright de... i will... "

bye~.. -=tiNg=-

end

end of the road

"the truth is wad i see now.. the truth is wad i have been blinded"

bye~.. -=tiNg=-

hmmmmm

sianzz........

n

sianzzzzzzzzz....

super bored...

tou hao tong worr..

"tong tong..."

bye~.. -=tiNg=-

gd luck!

long time nvr blog...

reason: at home rot = nth to do = nth to blog..

haha kinda pathetic arhh.. hahah...

ok here i am just to wish everyone ALL THE BEST FOR TML!! THOU WE CANT CHANGE THE RESULT LE.. BUT STILL WISH EVERYONE GD LUCK TO RECEIVE WAD WE WANTED LAHZ.. HAHA...

jiayou ar all!! see u all tml.. n especially those zhu peng gou you!! lolxx.. all the besTT!!

'love u... n love u.."

bye~.. -=tiNg=-

woHhOo

yest was fun...

jas, xt, siewling, jian, duncan, junxiang, peikun, oth n ben...

haha...

1stt... suki sushi...

next... movie - little man.. nice movi is a muz watch.. hha

next walk walk ard at cathay.. haha...

n happened to see this...

the hardo gay DUCKY... hha.. shuai lehz.. haha

ok den after tt they having fun playing pool n cs.. haha..

rush last train home.. =)

den had mango cake as supper.. whahaha..

just had my lunch.. full full wor.. haha

k lahz.. lazy type le.. blehhh..

"hav fun ltr.. love u always..."

bye~.. -=tiNg=-

hungry

other than hungry!...

tts nth i can think of le... -_-"

super hungry de!!!!!!! arrgghhh but i had my dinner le lehz... hMmmmmm

n super broke noww... brought meimei to orchard to shop.. in the end i bought a short too!!!! knss... BROKE laHZ..

ahah but saw bryan wong, li teng, wu luo yi, shi xin hui n ttt ger.. ok wadever at fareast... hahaZz..


ok still hungry.. soBbxx..

"tk cr worr... muscle-man wannabe!"

bye~.. -=tiNg=-

lala

stupid jian with ur stupid story...
Gonna KILL u when i see u arhhh.... -_-"

boringgggggggggggg.....

boredddd..........

i dun like the feelingg..........

coz nothin occupys mi rather than those...............

those..... RUBBISH!

herrhhhh...



hMmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm



"Your love has give an meaning to me
At first the unfamiliar special scent that only you had intrigued me
As time goes by, i keep changing.
You shined light on my world
Everything changed through you "

bye~.. -=tiNg=-

wah.. fast worr... 1 week of holiday hav passed~~~~

went to cut hair today.. 25 bucks gone worr.. hahaZzz...


waHh... see my eyebag.. kaoz.. so er xin de!!! ARGHHH...


obvious mahzz?... jian bao le.. hahaZz...

haha oso dunnoe wad to blog lehz.. hahaZz.. v sian.. recently v boring lehz.. BORED!!! BOREDD...

lala~~...

ppl plzz do some stunnn for us to blog lehz... even got stunn oso cannot blog lehz.. hahaZz... nth to look forward worr... this few day got chat w tt pk.. coz he oso v sianz.. he is more NO LIFE than mi.. haha... at least this whole wk i got go out everyday... but spent lots money oso.. SOBxx SOBxx.. somebody come sponsor mi arrhh.. LAI YANG WO BA!! haha...

den we got talk abt the perfect life tt we want... haha.. his perfect life v cute n funny lohzz.. haha.. but not bad... he wanna be a farmer.. got his own plot of land.. den grow wadever he wan lahz.. den can sell earn some money.. n hav his own bball court den can always play w his children.. haha quite cute arhh... den live peaceful n stressless life... haha n a ps2 as a bonus?.. haha.. baichi.. farmer w ps2... rubbish lohz.. haha...

den mine??... live at a not v popular de seaside... own a du jia chun.. run small biZ.. every yr got a small grp of customers will turn up... see them having fun... w clear sea n wind.... njoy a peaceful n stressless life too.. not bad yah.. no need to worry so much... everything so nature,,, haha... ideal worr.. haha.... like Xia Ru Mo Mo Cha de.. haha.. ^_-v

how abt u?... do u hav ur own perfect life?.. haha.. think everyone hav ba... haha...

kay lahz dun crap le.. go play neopets.. haha.. =P...

say dunnoe wad to blog.. in the end blog so much.. haha...

"miss u... "

bye~.. -=tiNg=-