had a very long conversation w dear yesterday.. i was so so tired after work and wasnt in the best mood.. but i wont say tts the reason behind what had all happened.. yesterday conversation leads me to questions and doubts and sadness.. 

i was afraid that i'm going to lose the battle with myself.. seriously i dont know how long can i take all these shit and why do i felt so insecure and down recently.. at least i know is more often than usual.. 

i dont know whos out there understand how i really felt coz i always afraid to say things out coz what i get back are those "tts the thing u choose and tts wad u want isnt it... "...... is really irritating... nvm... guess i gonna swallow them myself... HATE IT!!!!!

what i want and what i can do... whatever..

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just wanna say...

love you girls.. muackxx...

"i don't know how long... its taking years... "

bye~.. -=tiNg=-