i'm feeling sad and down now.. i'm lost and miserable without you beside me.. 

the parting at airport is much worse than any in the past.. i couldnt calm myself down for the last 2 days before my flight back to singapore.. i cried the whole night and i cried in ur arm.. noeing i'm gonna leave you soon.. tt really hurts me to the bottom of my heart.. nobody understand how i felt.. nobody understand how hurtful it is except for you.. i guess u felt exactly the same way as me.. the worst part is to step into the custom gate leaving my back view to you.. coz i noe exactly how it felt.. i felt so lost on the plane.. tearing my way thru.. i thinking of staying in the plane and hope it will fly me back to mel.. back to where you are.. 

we can choose to live together.. we can choose to be together rightt... is just that its not something tt people will do and choose.. to giv up everything tt they owe and hav in singapore and go somewhere where they are not familiar with and start everything new there.. with the one they wan to be... guess i dun hav tt choice too.. or guess i dun hav the courage to step into that?

life is short.. why cant we do something tt we wan... haiz...

i dunnoe.. i'm lost..

i'm sad..

i'm miserable..

nobody understand how we feel...

mayb we r not mature.. mayb we are childish to hav tt kinda thots... but..

dear i really miss you... really miss you..

'i wish i can be there with you.."

bye~.. -=tiNg=-